TOday, i KNOW The ONE TRUE Living TRIune GOD Who is THE Creator of HIS Universe -- ALL things visible and ALL things INvisible! And because i am HIS creature, dependent upon HIM for each and every breath, for my very existence -- i owe GOD my total allegiance, committed to obeying HIS revealed Will, as recorded in His HOLY Word, The Bible. i KNOW this Sovereign GOD as my Holy FATHER, as my Beloved LORD JESUS and MESSIAH, as my INdwelling SPIRIT of TRUTH, HOLY Comforter and Helper.
BUT before August 2003, in rebellious PRIDE -- i was senselessly and bullheadedly DISobedient to ALL of GOD's Commandments (whether in thought or word or actual DOing). i broke ALL of GOD's HOLY Laws for godly and righteous living. i bowed my knee to my fleshly idols of SELF-Focus, SELF-Pleasure, SELF-Pride. i misused GOD’s name, violated the Sabbath-Sunday, dishonored my parents, stole, lied, coveted, killed with my words, committed adultery in my heart -- for CHRIST JESUS Himself said that whenever i LUSTed after a man with my eyes, i've ALREADY committed adultery in my HEART!
i was BORN with a sinFULL nature. GOD's Word described my natural SELF before GOD interrupted my HELL-bound spiral INto JUDGMENT and Eternal PUNISHMENT. IT IS WRITTEN: “The ACTS of the SINful NATURE are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies...' Through GOD's TRUTH in Galatians 5:19-21, i was warned: 'that IF i live like this, i will NOT inherit the Kingdom of GOD.'
From the ABUNDANCE of my sinFULL Heart, came forth UNwholesome, filthy and foolish talk, coarse jesting, bitterness, anger, wrath, shouting and slander, ALL sorts of impurity, greed, gossip, malice, impure motives, flattery and "white" lies! GOD's Word convicted me of the TRUTH about my Heart: HOW deceitFULL it is above ALL things, HOW desperately SICK (Jeremiah 17:9)! i was naturally born a SIN-natured SIN-DOer -- practicing what was NATURAL to my sinFULL nature! Like Adam, i was a prideFULL rebel, an enemy of GOD, for it was my NATURAL inclination to rebel against GOD -- choosing to do my OWN will instead of doing GOD's Will, choosing to please MY own SELF instead of pleasing GOD, choosing to glory in MY own SELF instead of ascribing ALL GLORY to GOD!
i WAS part of the Walking DEAD of the world -- physically alive, BUT spiritually DEAD! i WAS HELL-bound, part of THAT UNsaved humanity -- 'the cowardly and UNbelieving and abominable and murderers and sexually IMmoral persons and sorcerers and IDOLaters and ALL liars, whose part will be in the lake that burns with fire and brimstone, which is the Second DEATH' -- Eternal HELL (Revelation 21:8).
BUT in 2003, when GOD IN CHRIST by The Holy SPIRIT's SUPERnatural LIFE-giving POWER, quickened ALIVE my DEAD spirit by REgenerating me aNEW, REbirthing me by GOD's GRACE alone -- by gifting me with REPENTANCE, with a NEW heart to LOVE GOD and others, a NEW mind SET in His WORD of TRUTH, with a NEW childlike Disposition of grateful and reverential OBEDIENCE to ALL of HIS Commands -- GOD reconciled me back to a LOVE-Relationship with Himself THROUGH and IN CHRIST -- i am a NEW creation, BORN AGAIN of GOD by The Holy SPIRIT; the OLD things that were of MErlin have passed away; and TOday, as rLn -- GOD's NEW things have come! \o/
TOday, my personal REALity is this -- 'to LIVE IS CHRIST and to DIE IS GAIN' (Philippians 1:21). Because my Beloved LORD JESUS DIED in my place to pay IN-FULL the Price of DEATH for my SINs, because The Holy SPIRIT joined me INto CHRIST's Body, because my Holy FATHER chose me as one of His LOVE-Gifts to His ONE and ONLY Begotten SON -- i am NO LONGER under GOD's Condemnation, NO LONGER under His WRATH, NO LONGER bound for EVERlasting HELL! HalleluYAH! \o/